I can't breathe, my mind fills with thoughts of you. My heart rate rising, my body shaking. I feel like I'm losing it, like not having it could kill me. It's taken over all of my senses. 

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"Quit it." My friends would say. You can do it."

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But they don't know, they don't understand what it does to me, what it does for me. The voices in my head, they're getting louder with every passing minute. my left leg is bouncing up and down now. I touch my hand to my leg, skin on skin, hoping that it'll stop the rigorous bouncing but it doesn't, I scratch my nails from my knee towards my hip, trying to feel something. Anything is better than the desire that's pooling inside of me.

 

You're a drug, a leech, sucking the life from me. Hell, I don't even think I had any sanity before I had you. The demons of my past saw to that. They keep me coming back, you keep me coming back. 

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You open your door, standing in front of me, shirtless, wearing only black boxer briefs. Your ab muscles on full display. The inside of my mouth coats with saliva, the heat of desire fills my body. I watch you smile at me as you run your hand through your hair. You know why i’m here, you’re not remotely stupid but clearly I am. You haunt me, like the ghosts hiding under my bed. 

 

“I can’t take it, just one more time.” I ask, practically whimpering. 

 

He shrugs his shoulders nonchalantly. He’s leaning his body on the door jam, still smiling. The dimple on his left cheek is visible. His blue eyes lit up with excitement. 

 

“You don’t look so good babe.” He replies licking his lips seductively. 

 

I’m hooked, that’s for sure. I need my fix and I’m standing here on the doorstep begging for more. It’s like I’m not me, I’ll never change if I don’t give you up now. 

 

I step closer towards him, he straightens. My body so close to his, I can feel the heat between us. 

 

“I know you’ll give in.” I whisper, my lips close to his neck, close enough for goosebumps to rise on his body from the feel of my breathe. I hear him swallow saliva in his mouth. 

 

“You’re just as addicted as I am.” I say, throwing my arms around his neck. 

 

My lips find his. He lifts me in his arms, wrapping my legs around his waist. The last thing I hear before succumbing to the ecstasy of him was the door slamming shut. 

 

We found our way to his room where he sits on his bed, my body still wrapped around his. He kisses a trail of kisses from my mouth, lips brushing against my skin towards my chest. He finds my nipple, sucking and biting, it hardens with anticipation. This is what I have been craving. What I have wanted all my life. 

 

I let you have all the power, I’ll be fine, once you’re inside me. Just one more hit, I promise I can deal with it. I’ll handle it, just one more time and I’ll be done with you.